Four days

So today was day 4. I wish I could say it's been easy, but I have had some huge challenges. With my trich I also get really bad scalp sores, which make me want to pull even more. My main challenge is not pulling the hair for the site spots specifically. I have to share that prayer is the only thing that got me through it. I sat and I prayed a long prayer to the Lord to pull me through because there is no other way that I can overcome this. I was able to get to sleep with out ruining my streak and have been in consistent prayer to stay on the path. There will always be sores , but I don't want to be the woman that always pulls. I want to be able to feel the breeze on my scalp, to put my hair in a ponytail, to wear braids, things most women take for granted. I am absolutely determined to reach that point. I want to be able to deal with the sores WITHOUT destroying my hair or hurting myself further. I'm sure that with time I'll get them less and less. But I must say, something about this time feels different. It's just me and God this time and I know that with HIM I can not fail.

Be encouraged!

Let's try this again...

Okay so it's been about a year since I've blogged, due to some unforseen issues in my personal life and some serious disappointment in myself. But I'm not going to let that stop me, I can't. So I'm going to try this again. I have to do it for me. So here goes...
Over the past few months, I've pulled and pulled and pulled. In hindsight I can say stress was a factor, loneliness was a factor, and lack of drive was a major factor. Starting today, I'm trying this again. Except this time, I can't not fail. I can't allow myself to. I can't live my whole life like this. The first day without pulling is the hardest, especially if it's a day where you're home alone. But I would prefer to start off on a day like this instead of a busy one, because those are the easy days. I would hate to trick myself into thinking it would actually just be so easy. I'll take the challenge...